I want to thank those of you who helped me get through the last week. Gianna and Ana, thank you. Stephany, thank you. Sherry, thank you. To all those who wrote to me, and those friends of Kevin who sent me emails about him, thank you.
I meant to start blogging again yesterday, but I - I .....
can't. I am overwhelmed by the email I am behind.
I am cycling down, cannot sleep or hypersleep. Cannot eat, but I am drinking. Went for a lithium blood draw and they couldn't find a vein, so I have an appt for a pic line if things do not improve.
I - I wish to heaven I was in front of that train instead of Kevin. But I am not suicidal. I just don't understand.
I am safe, Holly is watching me like a hawk. She is the best medicine I know.
I've never felt like this before. Broken. I've never felt broken before. But that is the only word to describe how I feel. Broken.
I hope to be writing again soon, I miss my readers, and get so much from them. But right now....I just have to figure out how to put the pieces back together again and live again.
I love you all.