Tuesday, July 27, 2010

mania-and a week to ten days hiatus

Dearest Readers,

I look at so many of you as family, it hurts to write this. As of now, I've flipped into mania. Real bad. Cannot sleep, and some real bad side effects..... won't go into now.....pdoc worried, friends in real life worried, hospital has been called I am fighting going in cause I don't wanna go, no one will take care of kitteh, but if  I don't go in in the next few days voluntarily, I shudder to think of going in involuntarily and what will happen to kitty. The only good news is it will be a diff hospital.

So I am going on hiatus for a few days I don't trust myself to write- I am writing, but I cannot post what I've been writing.... Not here, not on FB.... I'm scared shitless. I don't wanna go. I wanna try to sleep a good 12 hours get better by my own......

Anyway , comments are not going to be watched. Play nice.

16 comments:

midnight rainbow said...

I once fought for 3 days not to go to the hospital, when I realized my friends couldn't help me and I really needed help I made the decision to go.

If you feel you are in a dangerous place, please find the help you need. My prayers are with you.

misssrobin said...

I am praying for you. May you find the peace and rest you desire. May you feel supported and loved. May you allow yourself to accept help.

You will get through this. You are a survivor.

David Stein said...

Hang in there I know you will get through this your an amazing person and a brilliant writer who has touched so many people. We will all be here for you,

Stay Strong,

Dave.

Peace Be With You said...

Take as many hugs as you need()()()...
Judy

Andrew said...

All the best to you (((Sweet Susan)))

Anonymous said...

Susan, I know you said you aren't watching comments, but if you do read this, please know I am sending you strength, courage, and as many hugs and tailwags as you want.

I am here to listen. You can get through this.

Littlewolf

The Depressed Reader said...

My thoughts are with you. And whether everyone who reads your post replies or not, I am sure they are all thinking of you and wishing the best for you.

Like the post of your blog says, if you are going through hell keep going. Get through to the other side, whatever it takes. If you can do it outside that is great, but if it requires hospital, it requires hospital. Just take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time.

You can endure. You can fight the battle. And you can win.

Mary LA said...

Susan I am so sorry you are going through this -- please take care and accept help and do what needs to be done.

Love and hugs to you my brave friend

NOS said...

I'm sorry, Susan. I hope things resolve themselves soon.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Syd said...

I hope that you will get the help that is needed. It would be better to go into the hospital than to suffer and be in misery.

Marcie said...

Please find someone to take care of Holly and go to the hospital of you need to.

You'll be in my thoughts.

B said...

Be strong friend.
I'll burn some midnight oil for you.
B

Kristin said...

I am thinking of you Susan.
xx kris

Wonder Woman said...

with you in Spirit

Wendy said...

I know that you can find someone to take care of Holly - try checking with a cat rescue organization in your area and ask if one of their volunteers will foster Holly while you go to the hospital. They do that for people here where I live and might in your area.
If you know that nothing is working, take the straightest course to wellness, even if it goes through the hospital. Don't fight it if you know it will help.
I will always love you, I will be here when you are ready!
Wendy

Ana said...

Oh Sweetie! I'm sorry I didn't came to comfort you.
I'm reading you are getting better at the new post but I'm here okay?
Love,
Ana

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