Wednesday, October 20, 2010


I am here. This last fortnight I have been running a fever of 100-101 every day. My joints hurt.  The last two days I cannot move my legs or barely walk. I can barely get down the stairs in my apartment. I've been sleeping about 18 hours a day. When I am not sleeping I feel miserable.

I haven't been on line. I haven't been reading, or writing, I just feel too ill to do that. On top of that my hair is coming out in clumps, my fingernails, always strong, are breaking, and my skin keeps flaking off like my mother might have been an alien from "V".

I spent the morning with my GP getting blood drawn. They are testing now for Lyme's, Mono and of course my wbc for Leukemia, to see if it has gone full blown.

I am scared.  I really am.

And I am sorry for not blogging or visiting any blogs. I love writing and reading others, as well as books and I am just feeling too poorly to do anything.

I should know in a few days what is going on and hopefully will be on the mend soon.


My Black Fog said...

So sorry to hear all this. I hope your alright soon and that tests prove nothing serious. (( hugs ))

Jonathan Dosick said...

My thoughts are with you. Take care.

The Depressed Reader said...

Hi Susan,
That's really awful, I am sorry to hear that. I hope that you can get the tests back as soon as possible and that everything turns out alright.

Regardless of the results, there are people out here who care. Like Jonathan said, our thoughts are with you.

Andrew said...

Metta thoughts to you dear one.

Southernbelle said...

Oh no, I just checked you out on FB and saw this and followed the link--honey, I am SO SORRY!! What else do you have to go thru??? :-( I have been really really BAD and gotten myself banned (I hope just for now) from MG--plus I think I'm coming down with something too, had to cancel tdoc appt. *sigh* I love you and will pray that you will be all better soon--huge hugs to you and Holly!!

Stephi said...

Oh Susan, I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I am believing that it is not something serious and that you will get better soon. I sent you a comment somewhere asking you to read one of my blog posts- I feel bad now- don't worry about it until you get better

I'm not very good at praying- but I will pray against the fear that grips your heart and for this sickness to be banished from your body, you are so strong (even though you said that you don't feel that way)

You are loved by many, many people and I hope that will comfort you now.


Red Pill Junkie said...

Hang in there.

Mark p.s.2 said...

I hope you get well soon! Thank you for letting us (readers) know how you are doing.

Anonymous said...

I will say a prayer that your tests come back okay. You have a lot of people pulling for you so there's no way God can ignore all these prayers!

I hope (as we all do) to hear back from you soon - and with good news!

Take care of yourself.


The Blue Morpho said...

So incredibly sorry to hear you are doing poorly. Best wishes for your healing. Many thoughts are with you.
Adventures in Anxiety Land

sarah said...

praying for you to be okay...I'm really sorry that you're going through all this...stay strong okay....

Anonymous said...

Hi Susan,

I am so sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. Many, many healing thoughts are going out to you, as are many good wishes for the tests to show nothing serious.

Get-better tailwags,

Anonymous said...

Oh, no, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'll be thinking of you and sending you healing thoughts.

Kay said...

Hi Susan,

Are you eating? If you are feeling too awful to prepare food, at least drink Ensure twice a day.

Thinking of you here.

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