Headache gone, what remains is worse......

The Migraine left about half hour ago. i got some tea, toast and marmalade down, and now......

Now comes the suicidal ideation and the existential despair. Of course, it's night. it's the type of thing, nestled with an anxiety attack that makes grown men want to eat their guns, instead of steak for dinner.

it's 95 degrees in my apartment, even with the air on, I've been dealing with brownouts all day. I shall turn off the computer, go take an ice cold bath, and then lie on top of my bed, in my birthday suit and dream of Antarctica. Or the North Pole. Santa baby, bring me a nice cold blast of air.........

I will turn on the radio, snuggle up with my panda bear, and pray for the morning, for the ideation to go the way of an Edsel. To stay safe, I will count from 1-100 and then backwards. I will try to recall all 600 and so muscles in my body, all 200 and so bones. If the cat decides to come in and lie near me, I will listen to her breathe, her purr, and just feel the touch of her fur on my skin. I can think of good times, like my first real kiss, or the first time I fell in love.

Or I wonder how much it costs to go to the North Pole. Maybe Santa could use another elf or two.

migraine today

I have 2 articles that need finishing, but, i woke up with a migraine today. i can barely see, move my head. Vomiting. It feels like needles are being driven into my brain and eyes.


it's not getting better, so I am taking the day off. I thought today would be better since it's slightly cooler, since we had a tornado touch down last night.


Oh yes. i do have an ice pack on my forehead.

Oh well. The next piece will be on Mania and a certain Seinfeld episode.

I will miss you, dear Cookie Dough

I had a piece for this evening, but I learned tonight that Cookie Dough, the 5 year old bunny of David and Theresa M, has gone to the Rainbow Bridge.



So in memory of dear Cookie Dough, i offer this picture which was featured on The Daily Bunny on June 6, 2009. I will miss you, my fur friend.

Hell On Earth

Taken from Forgotten Photography, a web site that lists all the state owned psychiatric hospitals in the US.


This hospital might look lovely, but.... I spent 4 days here once. It's hell.

I'm bipolar, what are you???

I just took this quiz. i guess that settles that.......... what are you?

You Are 100% Bipolar

You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life. Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder.

Are You Bipolar?

Simon and Garfunkel and Arthur C. Clarke and Kubrick

I'm empty and aching and I dont know why



stayed up til 4 am last night watching '2001'. Very worried about the thing that hit Jupiter, and the big black spot now.

I wonder if it's a monolith. Or maybe a tomb for Stanley Kubrick, and Arthur Clarke, and Dave Bowman.



It's been 2 days since i slept. I need sleep.

We will miss you, Gidget

For those who haven't heard, Gidget died yesterday. Gidget was most famous for being the spokesman for the Taco Bell Chain of restaurants.

Below is a picture of Gidget, and a memorial from Conan O'Brien, which is a hoot. RIP Gidget, at the Rainbow Bridge. May you have all the tacos, burritos and chalupas you can eat.





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Philosophical Quandary

Do you take the red pill or the blue pill- but what do you do if the blue pill is Viagra?


As for me, I take Keanu Reeves. He and I share a birthday.

ETA: According to the Washington Examiner today- President Obama doesn't know what pill to take either. Red or Blue. from the paper-

"I

f there's a blue pill and a red pill, and the blue pill is half the price of the red pill and works just as well, why not pay half price for the thing that's going to make you well?" -- President Obama

In last night's press conference, President Obama seemed to be reliving that famous scene from The Matrix. The main character is offered a choice between a red pill that makes him see reality for what it is, and a blue pill that allows him to continue living in a pleasant world of illusions.

Last night, President Obama appeared to have taken the blue pill before his press conference.

Virginia Tech Metal Health Records

Leave it to Liz Spikol, to find this gem. Liz writes

Coming soon to a headline near you: The mental health records of Virginia Tech Seung-Hui Cho, who killed 32 people before turning the gun on himself. (That number still stuns me.) Apparently, a worker at the counseling center had taken the records home — I’m guessing to protect someone. And for whatever reason, they’ve just been located now by lawyers working on a civil lawsuit against the university.

Then Liz quotes the Associated Press Story-

Kaine said the records would be released as soon as possible. Lawyers in a civil lawsuit found the records in the possession of a former worker at the counseling center.

The governor said taking confidential records from the counseling center was illegal and state police were investigating how the records disappeared.

He said officials first would ask the administrator of Cho’s estate to release the files. A second option was to subpoena the records.

He also said he was not happy that the criminal investigation of the shootings failed to uncover the files.

While a large part of the shooting investigation focused on how university officials and law enforcement responded following the first reports of shootings in a Virginia Tech dormitory, family members of the victims have also inquired about how the troubled Cho slipped through the cracks at university counseling.

In April, on the second anniversary of the shootings, families of two slain students sued the state, the school and its counseling center, several top university officials and a local mental health agency, claiming gross negligence in the chain of events that allowed Cho to commit his killing spree.

The lawsuits also claim a local health center where Cho had gone to say he felt suicidal did not adequately treat or monitor him. The status of the lawsuit was not immediately known.

Holly Sherman, whose daughter Leslie was among those killed, said in November that she was less concerned with continued analysis of how university officials responded to the massacre and more interested in learning about Cho’s mental treatment.

Mike White, whose daughter Nicole was killed, said in November he was concerned about why Cho’s mental records went missing.

Andrew Goddard, whose son Colin was shot four times but survived, said there was more work to be done on mental health services. Goddard was appointed last year to the state board of Mental Health, Mental Retardation and Substance Abuse Services.

The sad thing about this tragedy is several people, playing Monday Morning Quarterback realized Cho was a ticking time bomb. First of all, how he was able to purchase a gun is way beyond me, but also his family and his teachers should have put the red flags together before any destruction was done. But then, it's always easy being a Monday Morning Quarterback.

It's the anniversary of the moon landing!

From my personal favorites around the blogosphere....


From Bitter Animator at My Medicated Cartoon Life



It wasn't Neil Armstrong, it was a mancat! From House of the Mostly Black Cats



"Look at those pictures, Wow!", Walter Cronkite on the Apollo 11 moon landing.